Beautiful Return

AlhamdulilLah! Siti Esah Bte Surip, at the age of 84, had attained her peace (returned to RahmatulLah) on the blessed Monday (just like almarhum grandpa), 16 Muharram 1441H (16 September 2019), after Duha.

I am relieved to have spent quality time in service to her during her last days to bear witness to signs of her final departure and learnt much from it. Allahu Akbar! I reflected on Habib's advice - that when Allah swt is pleased with His servant, He will protect him/her from harm, facilitate his/her return to Him in a pure state, with a good ending (husnul khatimah). So true, subhana-Allah!

Her passing reinforced yet again that death is not something to be sad about as the heartbroken returns to The Beloved. For the Mu'min, it is a moment anticipated for the longest time. And I am constantly reminded of her many legacies (she would have wanted that) - her relentless devotion to her husband (I am convinced that before his passing, grandpa would have been pleased with her and so enter grandma through any door of Jannah that pleases her), her concern, love and care for her children and grandchildren, her istiqomah in Tahajjud and love for Quran recital (just like grandpa), her strictness in preserving purity (Thaharah), her hospitality to her neighbours, friends, students, her generosity in charity (for madrasah/mosque building, religious education of the young, etc.) - too many to mention here. 

Nyai, thank you for being a beautiful role model to me. I am missing you already. As I kissed you for the last time, I am convinced that you are amongst those Allah swt mentioned in QS al-Fajr verse 27-30: "O thou human being that hast attained to inner peace! Return thou unto thy Sustainer, well-pleased [and] pleasing [Him]: enter then, together with My [other true] servants yea, enter thou My paradise". You'll be a constant in my supplications and in my heart ❤

Redha

The recent events brought home the point that redha is a two-way street (رَضِىَ اللّٰهُ عَنۡهُمۡ وَرَضُوۡا عَنۡهُ). A wise man once encouraged the memorization of a beautiful Surah, which I have come to appreciate. And a close confidant seeks the supplications for angels accompanying the eternal life - brilliant request for coming to terms with the maqsud of this life truly is to seek mardhatillah ❤.

Qarib

The past few weeks were a test (life is always a test!) not to succumb to- and be overwhelmed with- emotions. Wise advice and reminder from afar kept near, concerns and supplications cherished, an everlasting handhold, a ni'mah walhamdulilLah. La tahzan Allah ma'ana ❤

Eyvallah

"Every parting is a form of death, as every reunion is a type of heaven. No distance of place or lapse of time can lessen the friendship of those who are thoroughly persuaded of each other's worth." ☺

Once in awhile, you opened up and had a heartwarming chat with the most unsuspecting person as though you have known the kind soul for ages even if you have just met the person. And it made you wonder - was that a moment? Nah! Hmm, maybe... just maybe wa-Allahu 'alam. Whatever, whoever, whenever, always make a mental note that all has been pre-destined, you are the mere actor in the larger scheme of playwright by the One walhamdulilLah ❤

Obrigada

Most beautiful poetry. Most meaningful love. Affection alive. Heart's rhythm eternal. Revived by Thy Grace. Soul instinctive. Faith resolved. Mind's eye anchored. Learning journey towards Love Supreme. Even if I lose my self in the midst. Restlessness annihilated. Conclusion to life's purpose = MardhatilLah. AlhamdulilLah ❤

Bait yang terindah. Cinta yang bermakna. Kasih yang bernyawa. Irama hati selamanya. Nafas menghidupkan. Jiwa menggetarkan. Iman mengikatku. Kalbu mengunciku. Membawaku mengenali erti cinta agung. Andainya aku hilang jiwa. Segala rasa resah musnah. Penutup maksud hayat hidup = MardhatilLah. AlhamdulilLah ❤ 

Mystery of Wonderment

Life is like a box of chocolates, you never know what you are going to get. So enjoy and indulge in the sweetness of every bite. Analogous to that, the mystery of life - how Muslims believe in Allah's decree and predetermination (how can we not - we do not even know what our next meal will be!). A beautiful reminder to savour each moment and be grateful, anticipating the lingering sweet aftertaste to come (Allah's wisdom unfolding at every turn of events). AlhamdulilLah ❤

Or Noir

Black gold I could never resist and it would be a dream to create my own signature. Would love for the experience in a heartbeat. Precious P, regardless, I still adore you ❤

P.S. Wonderful respite in this blessed month of Ramadhan alhamdulilLah!